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a story to share :

She's a girl whose like an ahlian, always getting herself into trouble. Until one day, a guy taught her to forgive and forget. She thinks about it, and reflects on herself. What she had done was stupid; silly. She's trying to change. Like what the guy said, forgive and forget. Dont always blame other, cool down and think wiserly. There's always another way to talk things out rather than to get into a quarrel (:

LETS JUST END EVERYTHING (:

I love my friends, thanks all of them cheers me up and they're always here for me. ♥

Chongmal..

You know what i want? I want to open up someone, and i mean open up. I want to cry, laugh, scream and just spill out of my system, out of my mind. All those thoughts that have been suffocating me and eating away at me - i want them gone. Then, when i have finished talking, i would sit up and everything would be how they used to be. I would be my old self and everything would be perfect again. It would be like all the chaos never happened.

Take a step back. Fucking look at yourself. You are human, you are beautiful, you are so beautiful. and you can be anything. You can be everything. Do not hate everyone because someone broke your heart. The kid down the street called you fat, ugly, stupid, worthless. Do not concern yourself with things you cannot control. Cry when you need to then let go when it's time. Dont hang onto painful memories just because you're afraid to forget. Let go of things that are in the past. Forget things that arent worth remembering. Stop taking things for granted, stop taking life for granted. Live for sth, live for yourself. Fall in love, fall out love. Fall in love, fall out love. Do this over and over until you know what it really is to love someone. Question things, tell people how you really feel. Sleep under the stars. Create, Imagine, Inspire. Share something wonderful. Meet new people, make someone's day. Follow your dreams. Live your life to it's full potential. Just love, dammit. Ley go of all of the terrible things in your life and fucking life. And one day, when you're old, LOOK BACK WITH NO REGRETS.

Give up, i fucking give up. No matter how many times i tell myself to give up on you. I cant do it, is like so fucking difficult. I miss you... I really wanted to treat you like how you treated me. I am so fucking fed up. I miss you, i think about you so much that wasted my brain's memory ONLY. It hurts like hell trying to let you go, idk if i can...... I just want to get the fuck over it. I hate you and i gotta pretend everything's okay NOW. emo because of you? it fucking not worth AT ALL! Bastard, I did all the things to love you, And you ended up breaking my heart into millions of pieces

I miss you.

It’s the worst feeling in the world to love and hate someone all at the same time. And it’s hard to watch things change when all you want is for them to stay the same. It’s crazy when you want to let go, but you keep holding on, and you want to move on, but you’re stuck right where you started. When feelings come and go and you can’t decide what you want. When you have so many things to say, but you don’t know where to start. When you want them in your life so bad, but all you can do is push them farther and farther away. It’s so hard to think back how things used to be and look at it now and realize that things are different, and they may never be the same again. You tell yourself it’s not worth it, but if it really didn’t matter, you wouldn’t spend so much time thinking about it.

Hey guys, long time never update my blog due to laziness and studies =x Okay, MYE is coming ): and i havent prepare for it.. BUT i've deactivated my fb acc, :D my eng, i hope i wont fail it anymore but i dont even do some action to improve my eng, as in STUDY and DO MORE PRACTICE. Today napfa test, !@_)(*&^%$#!! i am so freaking tired and my whole body cramp ): ): btw, band went to SYF today and they got cop again AGAIN.. i thought i hate band, but i love band as well. it's tiring but actually it's FUN!! (: I realized i always have attitude problem.. i wanted to apologize to my band teachers and members as well but i'm not that thick skin i mean 我爱面子. I learnt from my mistake : cherish that what you have now, dont wait till you lost it and you regret.. Noh, that's a sample. At first, idw to join syf like fuck. But now, i regreted... really regreted. I even cry because of it. Lol, joke right? I keep complaining about band every time and i never look at myself in the mirror. Tmr going to Chinese Letter Writing competition, i hope i can win? Yeah, good luck for myself (: Nothing much, byeeeee :D