I am happily single. I would not get into a relationship for now as neither do i want to get hurt nor hurt people. I don't know what i want and yea. I realized i am much more happier than last time. It's like, i am much more happier when i am not in a r/s. I swear, i never ever treated love like a game. But, i just don't know how to love. I just can't stand that i'm being controlled and like need to explain or even ' report ' everything to a person. Like, i have no freedom? I know i very selfish. I know he is a good guy. He is a guy deserve to be loved. I know he has put a lot of time and effort on me. But i'm sorry. I don't know why would i get into a r/s with him at first, and ending was not good though. Like everything..... i don't know la. I only know that i am much more happier now and yea. It was enough for me. Every time i get into a r/s, emotions are controlling me and i am so freaking tired of the emotion break downs. Gosh. I understand how he feel. But, I'M SORRY): I'm sorry for hurting you. Sorry for wasting your time. Sorry for making you think that i was worth the while. Sorry for giving everything that you dreamed and taking it back when i fled the scene. Sorry that i needed you. Sorry for making you love me and saying goodbye. Sorry. For all that i have done to you, i wish i could make it right. I'm hoping the ' sorry ' will open your mind. And yea, i hope the time will heal the wounds that i gave u. Don't cry over the past, it's gone.
