Hey there.

I had dinner with HIM and his friends ytd!!! :D Okay, i'm so so so so fucking happy, hee hee. I dont talk much though. He'd changed, but yea, Halim's right, i still love him. Hais, " Every girl has that one guy she goes back to, heartbreak aster heartbreak and nobody knows why, not even her. And she just cant let go. " So true, isnt it????? For you, i will do anything i can!! Seriously, i am mad. Mad because of you. For you, i would. I had hoped you’d see my face, and that you’d be reminded that for me it isnt over. I love you, fuck.

Anyway! I got my iTouch 4 yesterday!! Woohoooo :D another good news right! Heee heee, >.< but i still so noob with it GOSH!!! My mother is addicted to my iTouch instead of her iPhone!! Can tell that she 喜新厌旧 right ?!?!?! xD

I'm going back to Malaysia tmrw,, sianz . About one month ley, k fine ): Hope have fun there... (:

Just a short post, buhbyesss loves (: I LOVE LYDIAANNACHERYLRICHELLEGIGIAKO ♥

Because of you, i dont know how to let anyone else in.

FML.

We didnt sleep and we down there chat and take pict >.<

Hey guys, i'm back! Back from camp , hehehe. The camp was fun!! Esp Camp fire, the instructors rock!! ♥ My hand muscle still vvvv pain T.T but it's ok(: The campsite were haunted! Oh gosh, luckily nothing happen on me.......... =x thank god.

I felt quite depressed recently, dk why, maybe santa claus caused it! Tsk. There's a lot problems recently........ feel like dying... i found out my life began so fucked up in Singapore... the times that i emo are more than i happy; The tears are more than the smile, in Singapore. Fuck it. Studies, Love, Friendship. Where the cheerful tzewei go??? Idk ): just now i almost cut my hand, feel like slashing myself again.. damn it. Time flies, people changed.. my life just that complicated; ridiculous; miserable.. i was once thought i'm the happiest , blissful girl in the world... but good things dont stay long.. he left me alone, studies like shit, friends began two-faced....... i hate third party, but i am a third party... i shouldnt talk to him until late in the night... i'm so sorry, imma a bitch..... i dont wanna turn it into this way, but i did. Sorry... seriously , it's my fault//. Can i just die?? I cant stay positive anymore!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'm fucking tired.. I'm a loser yea?

Gonna leave Singapore soon, i'm going back Malaysia this sunday. I wish i can forget everything that made me emo with this one month time.... Happiness? These days are scars........ Seriously, fuck my life.

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Loves

Loves for my friends and my family ♥♥♥

That's the way uh-huh uh-huh !

Oh hey, I'm hot!! :D Just kidding >.< hmmm, feel like blogging recently. I hate gangster, but i was an ahlian before, so call-ed ahlian, hmmmm. And i did got attitude prob. Yeah, i liked to slash myself, act big, find taiji or even chup taiji, anyhow guailan people when the person dont even step on us. I was a lot diff conpared to last year, seriously. I d k why i've became like this, but now i regret. I learnt a lot of lesson from what i did, it really so stupid :/ Yes, even i was bad last time, didnt i learnt a lot of lessons?? i've became maturer and wiser now (: could you see it??? I get nothing with that chao ah lian's life. Or i get haters, taiji, cases with that life. To me, ah lian are meant for stupid ppl who had nothing better to do. Act big? 人在做, 天在看... BULLY? awww, the victims suffer, and not good for you either. You will get your retribution one day......

And please, stop calling me chao ah lian. Fine.... i dont care abt it THOUGH. I realised people only look and remember the bad and never the good. WHY? I d k. I did changed to a bad girl, but cant you guys see i'm changing? Do give a chance people to change for better, dont you hope for a forgiven when you did sth wrong?? Do spare a thought to me please.... See what i'm trying to do now.. tks a lot (:

Recently, got some ' bian tais ' come add me and say ' WOW LESBIAN ' !! Oh hey the who that who, i'm a lesbian you prob ah?? Just fuck off please. Very annoying. I les with who, kiss with who, action with who ALSO NOT YOUR PROB . -.- Go gay with you dog tskk . Zzzzzzz...

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Left one more paper to go, maths p2 !! Shall do more practices later..... hmmm.. after exam, I'LL BE FREE AND I CAN ENJOY !!!!!! :D anw, people keep complaining to me they felt left out.. ME TOO k?? I cant imagine what if one day our clique quarrel.. Seriously, what i want is FRIENDSHIP FOREVER ♥♥ I love Lydia, Richelle, Akosua, Gigi, Anna, Cheryl, Weilin!! ♥♥ and i hope for the second chance for my love r/s !! Gosh, 10 more days : 22 May. It's was the first day i text him last year!! (; I still miss you.. ♥ ):

WOW. Long post man, hahaha! Gtg, buhbyes (:

I love you and my friends too (:

Sometimes, i fucking hate myself. I know i dont fucking deserve it. I love him so much, and i'm willing to do anything for him. ANYTHING. It has been 10 months, and i still havent get over him. Everyone has changed. Time flies, people changed. But i used to it, waiting and waiting. I quite envy of sweet couples, but being single is just so good that i already been through it for 10 months. Oh yeah, just be happy (: And i love my friends so much SO MUCH!! ♥♥♥♥♥♥ Without this friendship, we wont survive :D

Friendship isn't a big thing - it's a million little things.