I miss you.

It’s the worst feeling in the world to love and hate someone all at the same time. And it’s hard to watch things change when all you want is for them to stay the same. It’s crazy when you want to let go, but you keep holding on, and you want to move on, but you’re stuck right where you started. When feelings come and go and you can’t decide what you want. When you have so many things to say, but you don’t know where to start. When you want them in your life so bad, but all you can do is push them farther and farther away. It’s so hard to think back how things used to be and look at it now and realize that things are different, and they may never be the same again. You tell yourself it’s not worth it, but if it really didn’t matter, you wouldn’t spend so much time thinking about it.

Hey guys, long time never update my blog due to laziness and studies =x Okay, MYE is coming ): and i havent prepare for it.. BUT i've deactivated my fb acc, :D my eng, i hope i wont fail it anymore but i dont even do some action to improve my eng, as in STUDY and DO MORE PRACTICE. Today napfa test, !@_)(*&^%$#!! i am so freaking tired and my whole body cramp ): ): btw, band went to SYF today and they got cop again AGAIN.. i thought i hate band, but i love band as well. it's tiring but actually it's FUN!! (: I realized i always have attitude problem.. i wanted to apologize to my band teachers and members as well but i'm not that thick skin i mean 我爱面子. I learnt from my mistake : cherish that what you have now, dont wait till you lost it and you regret.. Noh, that's a sample. At first, idw to join syf like fuck. But now, i regreted... really regreted. I even cry because of it. Lol, joke right? I keep complaining about band every time and i never look at myself in the mirror. Tmr going to Chinese Letter Writing competition, i hope i can win? Yeah, good luck for myself (: Nothing much, byeeeee :D